no_one_but_me_2

Brit... & test... & me.

2007-12-11T18:36:28Z

Me being weird.

2007-12-10T17:08:50Z

Just waiting...

2007-12-10T15:58:07Z

LIly!!!!!

2007-12-08T01:23:37Z

Lily rocks the world... WOOOHOOOOO!

LILY & RUFUS

2007-12-08T01:02:24Z

OMG OMG OMG OMG.

Rufus + Lily = best couple EVER!

*faints*

I want MORE!!!

*Dies*

How's everyone?!

Today I wish...

2007-12-01T22:54:49Z

Today I wish I was a star

To know where you are

To be your light guide through the dark night

Today I wish I was a singer

To tell you how important you are without moving a finger

To say ‘I love you’ in tears and follow the plan

Today I wish I was a mother

To understand you more than your father

To be able to give you what you need

Today I wish I was an actress

To leave you and not getting lost in the darkness

To miss you and hiding it without a single tear

Today I wish I was for real

To tell you what I really feel

To show you what I fear the most

Today I wish I didn’t wish

Because it hurts to know you think I’m as insignificant as a fish

Because the pain is becoming unbearable even though you exist

Today I wish I was myself

To walk by you and look away

To smile at you and be happy anyway

Today I wish…

Tomorrow I will subsist.

Written by me.

no_one_but_me_2 @ 2007-12-01T16:32:00

2007-12-01T17:14:45Z

Today is a calm day and so I decided it would be perfect to start reading a good book and listen to some great music which I have been ignoring due to the new pop/rock that everybody has been listening to. Right now, Celine Dion is back on my playlist and some Mozart too. It feels so good to be able to act like myself... even if it's only for a few hours. As I searched for the new book I had bought last Wednesday, I found Homesick: A memoir by Sela Ward and Twilight & New Moon by Stephenie Meyer. I don't even know how I started reading because I used to hate to but now I just can't stop. Homesick is just amazing... not only because it was written by my favorite actress but also because we get to learn more about her & I even cried when she told the story about her mother. It's so perfect & so real that I'm always reading it over and over again and it makes me feel like she's right in front of me, telling the story of her life. If you didn't read it yet, go read it... it makes you feel so many things. =) Twilight and New Moon are great too!!! The way Stephenie describes Edward made me get glued to the book and Bella is an interesting character... she is real and her reactions are so typically human that you think that you could be her... well... only sometimes. xD I'm starting to read The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picoult. I absolutely adore the way she writes... and it makes me think which I appreciate.

Fanart:

I made a few Huddy banners and some new icons...

Teasers:

Banners:

01.

02.

03.

04.

05.

06.

07.

08.

09.

10.

11.

12.

Icons:

12 -> Lisa E.
06 -> ER.
02 -> PP (Private Practise).

01. 02. 03. 04.

05. 06. 07. 08.

09. 10. 11. 12.

13. 14. 15. 16.

17. 18. 19. 20.

Sadness

2007-11-30T20:16:07Z

I never know what to say

I don’t even know if I should say anything at all

It’s so hard to figure out what to be

And I’m so tired of trying to find a way to do it

Couldn’t I just close my eyes?

Couldn’t I just get through it without choosing?

I’m so young, but still…

Everybody expects something I can’t give

Everybody wants something I can’t find

Everybody has something to say about me…

Can’t they see that I’m trying?

Can’t they see that it hurts me?

Do they even care?

I know it’s easier to look and walk away

But I’m a human being and I need help

Is there anyone to listen to me?

Does anyone notice that I’m here?

I’m so confused about everything

I’m so tired of dealing with this

Maybe I should give up…

But is it fair?

Fair for who?

Me?

Them?

Why do I care?

There’s nothing else to do…

I just care about everything…

Even if it doesn’t matter…

Little thing I wrote...

2007-11-25T01:56:09Z

The cold night is here,
I just really wanna sleep.
I would close my eyes gently
If there was nothing else to see.

Somehow you’re still here…

In the beginning, I almost thought my senses were kidding me
But then, when the lights came back on…

Everything had changed.

Tomorrow was today
And today was yesterday.

I blinked slowly to make sure I wasn’t dreaming

There I was… in a stage with millions of people staring at me
They seemed to be happy… the smiles on their faces were real.

What had I done?

For a moment, I really didn’t care….
For a second, I thought I was dead…

Who were those people?

My eyes were searching for a familiar face…
While my hands found each other in a warm embrace.

My heart skipped a beat…

You were there…

Suddenly, nothing else mattered…
Suddenly, I was glad to be there.

When you're tea-drunk...

2007-11-22T23:47:28Z

Being tea-drunk rules and it helps you a lot if you are stressed or tired. & it even helps you write stupid things... here's mine:

I'm feeling so useless
Not that I care.
I don't really wanna share
Why my life is so meaningfulness?!

I finally started to use my brain
And the result is making me dangerously insane.
I'm not gonna try it ever again
Not even for my man.

I suck at this thing called living
And my body is now seizing.
You don't wanna know why,
It will just make you cry.

It's a really long story...
And there's no real glory.
Should I end it today?
Or will tomorrow be a better day?

There's no such thing as perfection,
Not even when there's affection.
There's no life... there's no soul...
You won't ever be on hold

Should I shut up and wait?
What's my fate?
Will I ever find the light?
Or will I hate to fight?

Nothing...

2007-11-22T20:06:26Z

Hello there. =]

I noticed that no one ever comments my livejournal and so I'm thinking about deleting it... what's the point to have one if you don't use it?! Anyway, I guess I won't do that for now because I'm totally in love with fanart challenges. Well... today was a slow day and I spent my afternoon drinking tea and looking at the TV... nothing good was on [as usual]. I'm so tired that I don't even know if I'm going to watch GA or Moonlight tonight... I need to sleep but I don't feel like it... it's boring. xD So I'm thinking about spending my lovely time doing fanart or writing fanfiction. I need to finish a Christmas one that there's another one messing around with my brain... I need to write everything down or I will just get insane. It's true, tomorrow I have to keep working on that stupid dance thing. Any ideas?! Okay...

Happy Thanksgiving to you all & have fun... because I'm bored to death. XD

xoxo

Teresa

no_one_but_me_2 @ 2007-11-21T15:59:00

2007-11-21T16:01:50Z

Who sucks at Math? Is there any kind of group I can join?! Today I had a test and well… hum… I don’t even know how to describe it… it was… it totally… *thinks* Hell… it’s was TOO hard for someone who had just ran 10 minutes and spent one hour working on some sort of dance which is actually RIDICULOUS. My head was still spinning from all those exercises and, as my psychology teacher once told me, “White pages make me nervous”. I can’t deal with the stress but I better start working on it soon ‘cause I have exams and I need to keep myself focused. Maybe a cup of Christmas’ tea?! I bought TEA!!! OMG! I love tea!! Anyway, my sister is coming and so she’s going to spent 24 hours per day here so I will have to hit her on the head and make her faint if I wanna get online… sounds complicated and a bit dangerous… I guess I will wait for her to go to bed… around 3 am… URG. Having sisters is fun but if she’s older than you and studying to be a psychologist… *sighs*

Teresa: “Hey, you… I need the computer.”

Ana: “I’m studying…” She doesn’t even look at me… URG.

Teresa. “Hello?! Go study somewhere else!”

Ana: “Teresa…” She looks up at me. “Can yo…”

Teresa: “Whatever. Forget it. I will use the one downstairs.”

Ana. “But Teresa… I was gonna ask…”

Teresa: “Me. Leaving.”

Ana. “You’re mean.”

Teresa. “Watch me going.”

I’m tired of doing nothing and I have lots of things to do… hum… I feel like making some new icons… maybe… probably… yeah…

Well…

See ya when I see ya.

xoxo

Teresa

Icons

2007-11-21T14:28:04Z

I can't believe it... I won something with an icon... o.o YAY.

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY

So... I'm so happy that I decided to post some icons... YAY.

Teasers:

01. 02. 03. 22.

01. 02. 03. 04.

05. 03. 04. 05.

06. 07. 08. 09.

10. 11. 12. 13.

14. 15. 16. 17.

18. 19. 20. 21.

22. 23. 24.

Fanart & Trouble

2007-11-14T16:08:21Z

I’m freaking hating my computer for being so SLOW & for not allowing me to post anything in here for 4 weeks = 1 month. How did I survive?! I have no idea but it’s better for me if I stop thinking about it or something will fly and it’s not my chair for sure… Anyway, today was like the worst day EVER… school sucked as usual and I’m starting to give up on trying to be happy with the idea of going to see the same people every single DAY … I have been there for like 4 years… isn’t it enough?! URG… The only thing that makes me leave the bed every morning is my future plans on studying cinema or I would possibly hibernate for the rest of the year. I’m here looking at my beautiful black Sony screen while I try to find something to do. I tried fanart and it didn’t work; I tried writing and it did work but the result is kind of sad… I guess I’m going to try a video now as I’m starting to get desperate. But before that, Wanna see my new banners?! ^.~

Teasers:
1.

2.

3.

Hey…

I need to talk to you…

Do you have a second?

Yes, it’s kind of important.

No, tomorrow might be too late.

C’mon…

I know you want to hear the story.

Don’t stay there staring at me…

Are you coming or not?

I don’t have all day!

Do you know the feeling of being lonely?

Looking around a room full of people without seeing anyone?

- sighs-

Well… that’s me… in that room…

Everyone could see the pain and sadness in my eyes…

But not him… no… he wasn’t there… he was never there…

Suddenly…

I felt…

A kiss up on my forehead;

One pair of arms around my body.

No, the pain didn’t go away…

But there I was… not alone…

Someone cared… and I was so weak…

I knew it… my body was about to give up…

I do understand it doesn’t justify anything…

There’s no way to…

But hey… I’m only human…

What doesn’t hurt me makes me stronger…

I’m getting weaker and weaker…

Do you understand now?!

Well, I tried…

Sela Ward:

1.

2.

Kate Walsh:

1.

Huddy

1.

2.

3.

4.

Gossip Girl:

1.

2.

No good news...

2007-10-11T22:09:37Z

I don't know what to say or how to react to what just happened... I'm too tired & too afraid... So I just wrote this:

Do you remember the past?

Yes, the one you have been trying to forget for ages…

Yes, the one that just found you again.

Everything you were afraid is back…

Everything that made you cry is back...

What can you do?

There’s no place to hide…

There’s no one to help…

You’re alone and you’re scared.

Are you going to give up?

Are you going to act like nothing happened?

Are you going to be strong?

Are you going to survive?

I’m not…

It’s too much and I can’t take it.

It’s all I can say…

I give up.

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I need help... I need to be strong... but how? I can't fight against this... not all over again... just no.

A few crazy icons...

2007-10-09T17:30:40Z

I didn't have anything else to do besides studying so...

Preview:

Sela's Icons:

01. 02. 03. 04.

05. 06. 07. 08.

09. 10. 11. 12.

House's Icons:

01. 02. 03. 04.

Lisa's Icons:

01. 02. 03. 04.

05. 06. 07. 08.

Moore's Icons:

01. 02. 03. 04.

05. 06. 07.

Only thoughts....

2007-10-09T13:29:20Z

I don’t know what I’m going to do today. I hate when I have time to think about the stuff I have been trying to forget. I know it’s kind of stupid and even hard to understand but… sometimes I just feel like getting away from the worlds’ population and be alone. Not to think, not to scream, not to cry… I just like to be myself for a few moments and I’m pretty sure our society wouldn’t accept who I really am. Not because I’m too quiet or too ugly… just because I’m different. I never thought it would be that hard to be understood… to be free and to be what I was born to. It shouldn’t… but it is. Life can be so cruel and so painful… Why do we need to suffer? Why are we so materialistic? Why can’t we just follow our dreams and be happy? Those questions don’t let me sleep, don’t let me smile, don’t let me live… Why can’t I be like everyone else? Why do I have to different? I don’t know if I should be proud of myself… I’m not sure if I deserve whatever is coming on my way. Past, Present and Future… I can’t forget the past, I tend to overlook the present and so… how am I going to live the future? Wait… Do I have a future? I don’t want to feel what I’m feeling, I don’t want to hear what I’m hearing… but I don’t have a choice. It kills me inside… too much pain for a person like me… lonely but still surrounded by millions of others. Do they feel the same? How can I know? People are getting so quiet about what they really believe… they live each others’ lives and problems… just because they’re too afraid of looking inside and see what they are… who they are. It’s just so awkward… they all want to be happy but most of them think that they have to wait… they sit down on a chair and wait for the happiness to come and meet them there. I don’t want to wake them up from that sweet day dream but hey… since when do we get everything we want without fighting for it? I know it hurts and I know it makes us cry sometimes… but what about the good things? All those smiles, all those sunny days, all those laughs… didn’t it feel good? Isn’t it worth of it? I have no idea… maybe I should just keep thinking… Who cares? I’m too different and too like everybody else. I don’t like to feel empty… and I don’t like to hear the loud silence of my life.

SCHOOL

2007-09-17T15:41:48Z

Okay… I’m totally disappointed with the Emmy’s ceremony… I just thought that some people were going to win but it appears that I need to change my glasses as I’m probably failing on watching the shows correctly. Seriously?! No House or Hugh? What’s happening around the world?! I’m sure they are all great actors or they wouldn’t even be nominated but I just think that people tend to forget about the things that are behind the characters. Oh well… This is only my opinion and I respect all the others that disagree with me. Now… about the host… I didn’t think he was that funny… Ellen was there for like 5 minutes and she rocked the show.

DRESSES:

OMG. Did you guys see what I saw? Lisa Edelstein & Kate Walsh wearing amazing RED dresses. Red is definitely the new black… Lisa looked great as usual but I’m a little sad as I didn’t see her on stage. About Kate… God… she’s too funny. =P Most of the people looked great but there were some strange choices around the red carpet… sometimes I think they have a few difficulties on choosing their clothes… Don’t you think?! Well… no one is perfect [Thank GOD!].

SCHOOL:

I’m back… I don’t know what’s happening around my school but suddenly everybody seems to have found their voices… they stop to talk to me. I was SURPRISED! My math teacher is HILARIOUS but three hours later I was already tired. =P

That's ALL!

Late...

2007-09-02T14:16:17Z

Hello there again. I haven’t been here for a while but I have a reason like everyone else. In the other night, I was getting ready to come and write my post when two giant spiders decided to join me in the living room. I got completely crazy and I turned off the computer right in time to run upstairs and sleep. I thought everything was going to be just fine but I woke up two hours later after having a horrible nightmare… all my family had died and I was all alone. It seemed to be so real… I woke up crying and just then I realised that I already felt alone but losing my family… NO. After finding myself in the real world again, I started to think about the relationship between me and spiders. [I know, I know… I think too much… oh well…] I’m huge compared to them… I look like a monster to them… and still, I’m the one who’s afraid of them. Stupid, right? But I guess it didn’t change anything… I still shake when I see one. Another strange fact is that… I can’t kill them. Really… I let them walk around and when they’re pretty far away from me, I leave the chair and I go upstairs. Cute! LOL. Changing subject! My t-shirts are READY. [T-shirts?! What the hell is she talking about?!] Well… We [Je and 4 friends] have this little Maura Tierney Fan Club [Lisa from NewsRadio and Abby from ER] and we decided to design one t-shirt. I’m crazy… no need to ask about that. =P Yesterday was a complicated day too and that was the reason that made me miss my post hour again… My family says that I spend too much time online but the truth is that while they all look like someone died, I’m always smiling. I’m happy… Why don’t they leave me alone? If I’m crying, they ask me why… If I’m happy, they ask me why… Please, I need a time OUT. And I’m going to have one LONG time out… SCHOOL. I didn’t want to go [as usual] but this is going to be my last year and then I’ll finally be able to follow my dream… to study CINEMA. My passion… Aw… I loved our conversation [MW is really nice to me…] but I gotta run… someone is calling me.

Pictures from the shirt:

Good bye depression, Hello new life.

2007-07-22T19:49:30Z

That's true. I'm happy to be back to my old self. =-]

I have to thank my good friend Tannii for making that amazing header and for helping me with my LJ because I don't understand anything about this. It's like Japanese for me... >.< Oh well... I know how to post stuff but I need some lessons. Is there anyone interested? I can be a great student! *smiles* Ok. Right now, I'm listening to the song "All good things." (or something like that) by Nelly Furtado. This song is a source of good memories... I sent it to EL and then we 'sang' it together. Our amazing parties... that I miss so much. It's a good song and it really makes sense... right? Her question is interesting... "Why do all good things come to an end?" I have been thinking about this question for a long time and my conclusion is really simple. We're the ones that end up with the good things... we tend to look at them as a curse and not as a miracle. We're afraid of being happy... that's what I think. We spend our life looking for it around the dark corners and when we finally find it... we let it go away. And, on that moment, I agree with my friend that once said : "People can be stupid!" Thanks Inês! You don't even know how much I agree with those 4 simple words. We're so stupid sometimes... For example, there are so many people dying of hunger and still, we think it's better to worry about who's going to vote in who. DUH! Wake up people... we're not alone... there's one big team called WORLD. We can't look at ourselves in the mirror and say: "What an amazing world I live in." because the truth is that OUR world may be perfect as it's only ours... there's no one else there and so there are no problems. The thing is... we can't live alone and we weren't born to live alone... Think about it. We need our nose and we have one... we need our eyes and we have two... we need our legs and we have two... We need people and that's why there are so many. Ok... I guess that it's enough of philosophical stuff. Thanks for reading! =P

Some new fanart:

1. 2. 3. 4.

5. 6. 7. 8.

9. 11. 12. 13.

14. 15. 16. 7.

18. 19.

Is it just me?

2007-07-11T03:18:39Z

I was going to bed when I realized that I haven't been here in a while… Not that I'm good with this things but I'm trying to get better. Today it was a strange day... one of those days that you think it will be great but in the end... it was all a big joke and you just feel lost. That's how I'm feeling today... lost. I don't know why or how it happened... I guess it's my destiny to live in this constant doubt. What did I do wrong? I guess I didn't do anything and maybe that's the problem. I can't just stay here writing while everyone else is acting. I gotta move... but when? How? With who? That's right. I have the impression that I can't do this alone anymore... I know that I have friends and everything... but will they understand me? How can they understand me if I can't do it myself? I'm listening to one music called "Sand in my shoes" by Dido. Did you ever listen to one song and feel like it was written for you? Like it tells the story of your day... of your life? She's so right... the lyrics are just amazing. I guess that I have been spending my days trying to find every single piece of sand... those small crystals... I seem to be living in the past... Is that even possible? Or am I just going insane? I'm not sure yet but I'm trying to find out... I hope it happens quickly... I have to move on. But where? Why do I always get the same questions as I try to find a way of running away from them? Am I supposed to stay here and watch my life as a movie? Am I just another person in the world? Am I supposed to do anything special? Am I important? Am I real? I guess that's all I'm sure of... I'm real... because I can feel pain... the pain that wakes me up... and sings to me when I try to sleep. I know I'm weird... just forget about what I wrote... I'm just another person in the world... It's doesn't matter.